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Boomer’s Ramblings (Holiday-Frustration or Joy)

With the holidays upon us, it can be a very confusing yes even lonely, time. The mood is supposed to be festive and full of thanks. It is hard for some of us, to deal with all the festivities. It may be in our souls, but it is not in our hearts. Or… Vice-a-versa. Anyway, and it maybe not be all of us, but at least most of us, feel we do not want to bring any one else down. This is why, for the most parts, we keep it to ourselves. There are times however, when it gets hard to keep the pains from surfacing. I know when you have plenty to be thankful for, (I for instance have three great kids that I love very much, and two lovely granddaughters that will bring me much joy for years to come, this I know). Some of us have a lot of good in our lives, and as much as we try to focus on those good things, it doesn’t always seem to work.   I know it is hard for others to imagine that those pains can even exist.  How can we be so selfish, that we do not see the wonderful things before us.   My only answer to that one is simple. We usually feel we have been brushed aside by those that we want, yes maybe even need to feel comfort from.   This makes it seem to most of us, that we are dealing with it alone. You look around and it appears that there is no one to listen and care.  As there is a side of me that is thankful for what I have.  There is the side of me that is frustrated and angry.  Part of the frustration stems from a female type person out there that is stealing money off my check every payday. Even though the court says it is legal it definitely is not moral, in any way shape or form. Therefore this creates a side of me that I battle with everyday. A side that it isn’t always easy to control. Everyday I fight with the need to let my anger out. Let my frustrations fly. A part of me thinks that I should announce my feelings , and maybe they will soon go away.  I don’t really know if that would do the trick, probably not.  In the meantime, it is possible you have alienated friends and/or co-workers.  All for what may very well be only a temporary fix.  I am pretty sure, since I do not want to hurt any body else’s feelings that I won’t let it happen, I will keep hiding my true self.  Just for when my emotions do get the better of me and I post something that fully expresses my frustrations and anger, and yes maybe even my impatience.  Then I hope the people who I wish to surround myself with realize, it is just a temporary feeling, and I feel the need to extinguish it by writing about it.


About Bigboomer

Hello, first of all I would like to thank you for visiting my blogsite. I am going to tell you a little about me. My name is Ray, I started writing back in high school. Every once in a while I would come up with a few ideas and would write them down. Most of which became poems others became short stories. Some of my inspirations are of the heart, some of them come from the thoughts of the day. You will see, as you browse threw my site my poetry is about as diverse as you can get. I hope that as you read them some will have you thinking of love, while others will make you feel sorrow. I would like some of them to set you off to an adventure. Finally, I have some poems that may make you hungry. I do have some inspirations that just plane turn into ramblings or rants as, if you read in here, you will see. I have managed to get two books published so far, the first one is titled Pathways, it may be found at xlibris.com/RayBohdan.html. there you can view a couple of excerpts form the book. The second book is Mingling Hues of My Mind it is at publish America A little bit more about me. I am fifty-one years old I have three children, Rainney, Elisa, and Anthony and two well, actually, three grandchildren Raeanne Marie, Graycee, and Amaya. I guess I could go on, but then I am afraid this will come out sounding like a dating profile. Part of my site will be dedicated to my poetry, I plan to break it down into different sections and organize it by type/style. Another section of this site will be dedicated to my blog it will be about my rants/thoughts of the day. These will vary from political, to personal, to comical. I will talk about most anything and everything that I feel may be of interest to someone. I also will devote a section to some of my favorite recipes with hints on how to capture his/her heart by winning their stomach. My favorite foods are Italian and Mexican, but this section will not be limited to those two types. I do believe however, that the most important part of my site will be the dedication pages. These will be to memorialize special loved ones and friends, as well as thank those that have made purchases of my afore-mentioned book. This is exactly what you think it is. A way for me to sell my self as a writer. Publicly get my words and thoughts out into the world. Please believe me when I say that this in no way demeans or diminishes my passions for the people and the love of which I have written, and will continue to write. I trust that once you read my poems you will feel the love i have felt, the pains I have been through, and the joys of life itself. Once again I thank you for stopping by please enjoy.


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