I was going to start this off with “we”, but then decided that I can only speak for myself. My conscience shows up in many different forms. Today while working-out, sort of, it appeared as my neighbor giving me a hard time about doing it more than once every two months. There are times when having a bad day at work and my attitude is getting off track it will appear as my boss or a respected co-worker. They either say something to me that makes me stop and think, or some times it is just the look I imagine on their faces. There are times when it tries to appear as someone I do not care for. I argue and fight with it, and they can get angry and cruel. I am always glad it is just my conscience that I am wresting with and not a real person. There is a poem/rhyme I wrote about carrying a grudge, by the way it is a few posts back, it came from the whole wrestling with my conscience thing. When it appears as someone like my neighbor it is usually just trying to push me further than I apparently plan to go that day. When it comes out looking like a friend or co-worker, most of the time it is trying to tell me I need to live and let live. There are certain things I can’t control and so I need to relax and go with the flow. When it takes on the personae of someone I want to argue with it is usually, hell who am I kidding, it is always because the grudge is poking it’s head out of my pocket and wanting to come out and play. At times I believe that the two little people on my shoulders, the angle on the right and the devil on the left are dressed in boxing trunks with full gloves (no mouth pieces) going at it.It is never easy wrestling with my conscience it almost always seems to win. Although, I am pretty sure that is a good thing, there are times when getting my point across means I need to ignore it and play the bad guy.
I have just now started debating with myself as to whether this will be my radio show topic or not. I think it would actually make a pretty good one.