First of all please allow me to re-iterate the fact that I do not like to assume I know anything. I would also like to get back to the Thought Vs Opinion chapter of my “Verses” book. A work still in progress by the way. Because these are thoughts of my opinions about different subjects.
Subject one: Narcissism and it’s relation to our conscience. As I have stated before I do believe that we are all narcissistic in one way or another. For most of us that does way down our conscience or maybe, at-least, the sub-conscience. Granted this all depends on your opinion of the subject and how you view yourself and the life you are living. Which in turn goes to your conscience and how clear it is. For instance, and yes I am trying to dig semi deep here. Is the desire to be with someone special as opposed to living out your life alone, narcissistic? Most of us would like to think it is a natural feeling and with that no selfishness is involved. Of course there are two sides to this. A person could argue either point and be right no matter what side they take. However, if it weighs on your conscience because the want to be with a certain person does in some adverse way affect someone else. Then maybe that particular person is being the narcissistic one. The question to them now becomes, how is their conscience doing? My concluding thought on this subject : If your conscience is weighing you down because you feel you are being narcissistic simply because somebody else is making you feel guilty. Then you are not narcissistic at all. As your initial thought seems to be of your own happiness, if it brings happiness to the other person(s) involved, shouldn’t your conscience be clear?
Isn’t it amazing the stuff you think of when in a back room alone sorting through pallets of groceries.
Subject two: What do you scratch when nothing is missing? I was watching a movie “Field of Dreams” and there is a part in there when they talk about your dreams being taken away from you. Or…in some cases……coming within inches of you like a stranger passing you on the street, and you not recognizing them well enough to reach out and take the reins. The reference is like an amputee reaching down/out to scratch an itch that can’t possibly exist. You know something is missing, and as it may not be a physical object it is emotional it is something you must wrap your heart and mind around. Concluding thoughts on Subject two: Recognize your dreams, wrap your mind around the concept, and propel them forward with all your heart.
Subject three: My prerogative: Right now I am actually cheating I do not really have a third subject. So I am going to end this rambling with the note that this is part one. It will be my prerogative to add notes or blogs later if I wish. I do realize that calling it part one does indicate that that will be the case. It may be my prerogative in the future to scrap the whole idea and never write another part. Conclusion of subject three: I have given my thoughts on the opinions I have about narcissism and how it may be related to our conscience. I have also talked…er….typed about scratching that itch. Even if it is an itch you cannot see, it is definitely one you can feel. Therefore you need to pursue it with gusto and fervor never giving up on it. I have also talked a little about prerogative. Chasing that itch no matter how narcissistic it may seem to others is your prerogative. If it is at the benefit of others than your conscience should be clear.
Disclaimer: please remember these are the thoughts and opinions of one possibly narcissistic man looking to chase his itch as I feel it is my prerogative.